Abstinence in the face of Absurdity.
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I've been getting out of airsoft for about 4 months now. Strange as this may seem, but I do actively try and spend as little time thinking about it as I conceivably can, although at the moment this is by definition a process I find counterintuitive because I use the interest and the buzz (you all know what I mean 
) of buying and planning new gear, and adding or creating whole collections, to escape from the unwarranted stress and unnecessary overesponsibilities of work when we are busy (which is most of the time in this portion of a year, apart from these couple of weeks that coincide with the start of the Brat Release & Reintegration Programme, A.K.A. - school summer holidays).
What I mean by that is that when you get loads of totally extraneous sh** heaped onto your shoulders (and your shoulders alone: isn't this what the rich, responsible boss is for??!) and especially when it has arisen because of other people's laziness and/or incompetance and they simply stand aside and let/make you sort it out and take all the grief for it, it helps to have something you actually really like to do in response to those things, and as a relief from all that 
So I find it hard to give up the ol' airsoft addiction when buying a new gun/some new guns is just about the only direct polar opposite emotion I can trigger in the workplace as an antidote to the admittedly somewhat infantile work stress (regardless of the situation I can handle anything that happens, I just allow myself to get p***y about it because some people (family of the boss) get paid a lot more than I for doing A LOT less 
), and I can do that in a quiet moment or at lunch-kinda-time (we have no actual break, but it gets a bit less manic around 1:00am) and I really need something to do that's interesting and enjoyable to me, just to counter the sense of impropriety at what is being asked of one person when others do *fruitcage*-all I have plenty to get on with anyway!!
I'm not looking for fairness or justice because neither of those ideas are real, but I would like to see some level headed judgement on the part of the owner of this here company. By doing so much I inevitably omit some duties from my schedule, and our profits do slightly suffer as a result - totally curable because the manpower (or rather, womanpower) is technically there but she just wont get on with it 
Sadly, I've known him for more than 7 years now, and I can safely say that level-headed judgement is a treasured rarity indeed 
But hey, I still enjoy the vast majority of the job and its only annoying when I can see how the others are slacking (see no evil; feel no wrath. Well, not much wrath ) while I and the foreman are working our b**** off.
- Back on topic...
I try hard to ease back on my personal fascination with airsoft guns because after a certain amount of time spent thinking of very little else it becomes apparent that you're really not doing anything with your life; sure, collecting airsoft replicas is certainly very involving, interesting, even exciting in its own way, and it satisfies certain instincts that we have for the ever-enthralling concept of `cool`; but it sure ain't getting you laid And there's no denying that base instinct...
So now, although I do have a constant yearning for The Next Gun and my finances do still largely revolve around that quest, I am actually breaking free from the collecting game. I'll have 96 or so guns when the next order gets placed and delivered, and a round 100 is a good place to stop. Between the climbing, reading, brewing, travel planning and generalised socialising I find myself with stuff to do most of the time, giving up drinking (bar what I actually make myself) and learning to drive assist in this, and once I'm driving then learning a new language via the wonderful medium of audio tapes/CDs should help even more in this quest, and for the sake of my sanity I'll have to start doing a bit more in the way of exercise to capitalise on the weight I will inevitably lose from not imbibing all that lovely fattening, artery-hardening beer 
.
What I have to make sure of now is that I don't waste Saturday nights drinking by myself (not a problem any more), don't squander them in pubs & clubs getting wasted with friends either, and don't don't equally waste them doing f-all in place of going out/staying in and getting wrecked. I get the feeling I'm about to do something dreadfully constructive....
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