enzo100 Posted April 10, 2005 Report Share Posted April 10, 2005 Well my girlfriend just broke up with me...its a long complicated story and I wont get into it but it left me to write all of these and I was bored so thought I'd get all sappy on Arnies Its over…all I have left is nothing….im not okay….its over and the one feeling im left with leaves me so torn Love seems to last a lifetime when its ended by a bullet through the heart The smoking gun that is held by the one you love pierces through you And its over…and there is no more For all its worth you’ve left me here alone in the cold sheding tears Losing you was my greatest fear But ill be ok…torn…but ok But ill remember your love every *fruitcage* day Ur tears stain my memory I just don’t understand We had the chance And yet here I stand…clenching a pierced heart From the bullets of love and death Ill never show the way I feel My feelings are locked away From the time u left me so alone Ill never forget my feelings But you may never understand Just how I feel about you It all comes down to a few words But words can be a weapon Words are the bullet And you’re the one pulling the trigger In my mind I hear your voice See your smile What we had was worthwhile But my heart is dead The bullets of our love killed it In a relationship theres always a round in the chamber Its just a matter of who fires first Your love meant something It still does I don’t know why but it is still there Hiding in the shadow of the hole in my chest Ill always be by your side Ill be there when you die Ill hold you when you cry Ill put up with your lies But when it comes to true love Im not bulletproof Everyone thinks that bullets can hurt you The only bullets that hurt are those of love One round is all it takes to break your heart And the loaded gun in your hand is loaded with that bullet All my life I’ve feared death Guns have scared me Bullets scare me But now im dead Love killed me With what I feared the most- Losing you It seemed for a while that all I had was you Your love Your company Everything about you But I cant find you know Because you killed me- With that very love Love is death But I’d die for your love Everyday I think of you Every minute I hear your voice Every second I feel your love At least ill think of u every moment until I die U never gave me a reason As to why you pierced my heart That bullet is still there Only you can make it go away Your love is all it takes Not long ago I found myself Staring down the barrel of a loaded gun I could see the round in the chamber And before I heard the last sound I’d ever hear I saw your name on that bullet And that name is still in my head Death is something I fear It always was somewhere in my mind It lingered there…waiting Then I lost you And I lost my greatest fear to your love The caliber of a bullet can tell you a lot of how it will tear you apart The caliber of love is beyond counting The second you love someone they have you in their sites Love is a professional sniper It has more kills than you could imagine I’m just another casualty All this time you said you love me You still do Yet you say its over And that there is no more So I stand here so torn it hurts Wondering if I’ll ever stop loving you Until I collapse under the weight- Of the way I feel for you I thought you left me for something else Because you said you still loved me Somehow I believe and accept your love But I have to wonder if that something is another someone I may never see you again That final goodbye may just be the last But no matter what happens Ill be there when you cry Ill be there when u die Ill cover up your lies And in the end we can cry together And die together The pages of my heart are filling with these words Words that hold your name inside them Words that hurt Words that kill Words that broke my heart Words that show I love you My shirt is stained with blood From that bullet of death and love I saw your face as you aimed down the sights And the final tear I saw killed me before the bullet got there The blade you hold in your hands is covered in blood But you did nothing All you ever did was love me And look where it got us Heckler and Koch One of the greatest gun manufacturers ever They’re famous But your love is the most incredible weapon ever It didn’t take long for love to target me Your love was always locked on It just waited for the right time to fire And when it did- It left me here without you- Crying tears of my love for you If today was the last day of my life The only think I’d want to see would be your tears That tell me you care Didnt take long to write all that Link to post Share on other sites
Itsari Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 ...woah... Link to post Share on other sites
Samm Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 ... Are you okay? Christ even after the longest relationships I've never felt so bad that I need to write a poem. Please get better soon. Link to post Share on other sites
enzo100 Posted April 11, 2005 Author Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 I've been better...I dont cry much but this got me...its hard to explain...but I just wanted to post some of that stuff..idk why lol Link to post Share on other sites
Jow Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 /me hands enzo the Dashboard Confessional CD's. You'll like it. Good music, I listen too them alot. Emo. Link to post Share on other sites
enzo100 Posted April 11, 2005 Author Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 I love emo listenin to my chemical romance *my favorite* right now for morale and and poetic influence Link to post Share on other sites
Jow Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 MCR aren't realy Emo. DASHBAORD I SAY ! Link to post Share on other sites
enzo100 Posted April 11, 2005 Author Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 meh they kind of are...no dashboard fo rme though although I took some "how emo are u quiz" and I got "dashboard confessional"....so did my ex gf :'( Link to post Share on other sites
Jow Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 Look on the bright side, now you can have any boobs you can get your hands on and not get shouted at for it. I'm only allowed too look. Link to post Share on other sites
HeuteGegangen Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 Heckler and Koch One of the greatest gun manufacturers ever They’re famous But your love is the most incredible weapon ever <{POST_SNAPBACK}> Can I put that in my sig? Sounds like you need to put some Muddy Waters on Link to post Share on other sites
Jow Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 After reading them poems, maybe she left you because she thinks you're a gun nut? Link to post Share on other sites
enzo100 Posted April 11, 2005 Author Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 1. yes please put it in your sig...with props to me and jow she knos im a gun nut they made her cry she called me in tears about 10 minutes ago because the poems got to her...I dont normally wriote that kind of stuff *sigh* this sucks Link to post Share on other sites
Jow Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 She reads the forums? ;D TBH, don't mope around feeling sorry for yourself for too long, try your best to get over it. Since I've only broke up with 2 week flings, and my current relationship is still going (2 years w00t) I don't really have much advice. :/ Are you two staying friends? Link to post Share on other sites
enzo100 Posted April 11, 2005 Author Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 Yea I couldnt live without her I dont think.....we'll still be friends....but her best friend just called me and said she was having second thoughts...im not even gnna get my hopes up Link to post Share on other sites
Jow Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 I still see you haven't commented on my boobs comment. Link to post Share on other sites
enzo100 Posted April 11, 2005 Author Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 Heh..well wait and see Jow Link to post Share on other sites
Jow Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 I will be PM'ing you a link in a minute enzo. Keep an eye out for it. Link to post Share on other sites
sp00n Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 Um, arent you like 14? "Love" and "girlfriends" really dont exist at that age. Your well on your way to being one of those damn emo kids I want to beat up every second of my life. Link to post Share on other sites
Jow Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 Um, arent you like 14? "Love" and "girlfriends" really dont exist at that age. Your well on your way to being one of those damn emo kids I want to beat up every second of my life. <{POST_SNAPBACK}> *fruitcage* you. Age has nothing to do with it, it's maturity. Link to post Share on other sites
Jedi2155 Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 Yea I couldnt live without her I dont think.....we'll still be friends....but her best friend just called me and said she was having second thoughts...im not even gnna get my hopes up <{POST_SNAPBACK}> Sighs...I know the feeling...and unfortunately I still like the person after a year and a half (it goes on and off). But I also wrote some poems when it happened to me. Although we're still good friends. As for the music, try this http://www.audiostreet.net/artist.aspx?artistid=13028 (Infinity) I found it on another forum and I found it to be very nice.. Link to post Share on other sites
Antagon Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 Well age and maturity are often directly related.... Anyways, yeah...angsty... Link to post Share on other sites
Jow Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 Alot of the time, but not always. Link to post Share on other sites
enzo100 Posted April 11, 2005 Author Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 Um, arent you like 14? "Love" and "girlfriends" really dont exist at that age. Your well on your way to being one of those damn emo kids I want to beat up every second of my life. <{POST_SNAPBACK}> Who said anything about me being emo *whistles* Link to post Share on other sites
Jow Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 Who said anything about me being emo *whistles* <{POST_SNAPBACK}> You did, the second you posted them poems. Then you reinforced it by saying you like Emo music. EDIT: Thanks whoever recomended Smashed Cherub, they're quite good. Link to post Share on other sites
Sledge Posted April 11, 2005 Report Share Posted April 11, 2005 Hey, sp00n, you live in the States, right? Good. Should be real easy for you to go shoot yourself. Just as a favour to the rest of us. Link to post Share on other sites
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